Updated: Apr 19
Did you know that the month of May is mental health awareness month? It is all about getting rid of the stigma around metal health. Even though it is 2018, people still get nervous when you mention the word depression. Why are we so afraid of that word?
I had depression for two years.
About two years ago I was diagnosed with severe depression and severe anxiety. I wrote a blog post about it almost exactly a year ago (you can read it here). And that was the first time most of my friends and family heard that I was suffering from depression. Some of you now may be surprised to hear that I was depressed.
Nobody knew unless I told them. And I think I told 5 people.
Telling people was the hardest thing I've ever done. I was terrified of the word and I was afraid they would see me as weak. But they didn't, if anything they reminded me how strong I was. They showed me that getting up in the morning when I had this darkness was a huge achievement.
During those two years, I cried myself to sleep most nights. Going to work was awful, I cried the whole way up on the bus. Most days I cried in work. I cried the whole way home from work and again cried myself to sleep.
It is hard to describe depression if you've never had it. It is like a darkness surrounding every part of you. A darkness that tells you that you aren't good enough and that the world would be a much better place if you were no longer in it.
But we are stronger than this darkness. We must keep fighting. If I can fight it, so can you. You are not this darkness, you are so much more. Keep fighting and keep living, I promise you can do it. I am here for you every step of the way.
I have fought depression and I am so proud of myself to have gotten through it. The simple things that cured me was talking to people that loved me, getting outside every chance I could and practicing yoga and meditation. If you want some yoga postures that help with depression and anxiety, click here.
If you have depression please don't suffer in silence, there is someone out there who loves and cares for you and will be there to help you if you just ask.
Love, Light and Namaste,